Today I went to my new gym – Pure Energy – and it’s awesome, I love it. It has all the classes I want to do and loads I want to try.
My first class of choice today was UGI ball and Barre. Never done it before so didn’t know what to expect. I walked into the room and there was already a lady in there. She obviously knew I was new yet did nothing to help or ease my worries. I automatically took a dislike to her and then without even knowing WHY, I started competing with her on all the moves…. What was wrong with me? She didn’t need to be nice to me, she probably didn’t even know I was new…She didn’t owe me anything. Yet I found myself looking over to her during the class and feeling such joy when I was doing squats deeper, push ups properly…. How ridiculous am I!! And the woman was at least 15 years older than me and a good 10kgs heavier.
After that class, a few of us went on to do the spin class and this lady came too.
How disappointed was I when on the score board she came first and I came 4th.
BUT was this in a weird way healthy competition which made me go further, faster? OR was it just me being ridiculous and a sing I need to spend more time on my yoga and meditation???
I’m going to go back and hope not to see her again, but if I do I will TRY not to be competitive in an unhealthy way. I need to concentrate on ME.